ashleypajor

Yes, I was one of those pregnant women that wanted to control everything. Especially with regard to labor and delivery. It bothered me so much that I had 0 control over when my little man would arrive in this world. I tried to plan the best that I could, starting with work and what my ideal birth plan would look like. I remember thinking to myself, i’m a counselor, I deal with crisis, I meditate daily, I literally teach people breathing techniques at least 3x a day. I got this! Well nothing really went as I had planned. I made plans to do my birthing classes at 36, 37 and 38 weeks of pregnancy. I remember sharing in my birth class how I wanted to have choices and be able to control what I could. Something I teach my clients daily, be in control of only what you can and let the rest go. My ideal birth plan was to have essential oils going, a dark room, soothing music, doing meditation and having everything be super peaceful. I wanted nothing to do with an epidural, as I am terrified of ...

There’s one thing I always knew about myself, 1000%, and that was that I was meant to be a mommy. My journey to motherhood was paved with all sorts of bumps and road blocks though. After my husband and I got married we started actively trying right away. Truth be told, we were half trying even before our wedding day. I always thought, try for a few months and get pregnant super easy. Well, that was not my case. I mentioned at my yearly appointment with my OB/GYN in October that we were trying for a few months now. He asked about my efforts, ovulation tracking mostly. I told him that according to my app I was scheduled to ovulate soon. Well he did a ultrasound and found that not true. I wasn’t even close. This led to a worry that I wasn’t ovulating naturally. So he gave me some hormone pills to help me ovulate. I was so excited because I had never had regular cycles and thought to myself, “these pills = baby.” Boy was I wrong. They made my cycle even more irregular and gave me symptoms ...

My husband Mike and I have been together since 2012. We actually went to high school together but ran in different crowds so we never actually knew each other. We actually connected via facebook. We planned a date to a local park after talking for a few weeks. We both showed up in white shorts and a black tee shirt and laughed immediately. I fell in love with him that day. From 2012 to 2015 we were dating and planning our future. In December of 2015 he proposed, after a little nudge, or 10. I’m a little impatient. We got married August 25th of 2018 and I never loved him more than on that day. Or so I thought. We spent the next 2 years loving married life and trying for a baby. After a lot of struggles and emotions we finally got pregnant in January of 2020. Remember how I said, or so I thought, yeah. Seeing him hold our son for the first time, I fell so much more in love with him. Anyway! Now that baby boy is here, we’re on a whole new journey. One that’s been really hard, challenging ...

  Hi There!  Thanks for popping by! Writing has always been something that I love, and I have always wanted to blog, so here I am!  A little about me! My name is Ashley and I live in Buffalo, NY! I’m a wife, a new mama to the sweetest baby boy and a mental health counselor. This blog will be my place to share my journey through life. Trying to navigate the balance of home and work. Trying to figure out this whole parenthood thing. And bringing up some really important aspects of mental health, which I experience as well as help others through everyday.  So stay tuned for more! :)