ashleypajor

My story started on April 22nd. It was a Thursday morning and for the last 3 weeks I had been feeling so sick and emotional. I kept telling my husband, either this is the worst PMS ever, or i’m pregnant. Not believing that I puke be pregnant. I know they say, “you're most fertile the year after you give birth.” But I still didn’t believe it.  Well that morning I dropped pee into my dollar tree pregnancy test and said, “if I really am pregnant again, please just let there be a line, even if it is the faintest line, I just need to know”. As I was watching the test I could see it. A super faint second line. I cried, gripped my belly and smiled so big. It actually happened. I have my son, Caleb who is 9 months old, it took almost 2 years to conceive him, so to be pregnant again so quickly was magical to me. I ordered a shirt for Caleb that said “I may be little but i’m going to be a big brother.” That’s how I told my husband, by showing him the new shirt I bought for him. We were both ...

As a mental health counselor, I know how emotions play a huge role in the progression of therapy. I would say at least 95% of the clients I have worked with in the past and still currently work with struggle with emotions in some way. The most common is not being able to accurately and appropriately express emotions. The biggest analogy I use with emotions is the hoover dam. I say to clients that all of our emotions are like the water being held up by this giant wall. We’ll eventually the wall cannot hold anymore behind it and it ends up overflowing or breaking.  People who talk about anger outbursts or emotional breakdowns, this is what this is.  The difference with the hoover dam is that they release water before that happens. As humans, we need pressure release valves to release some of the pressure of these emotions before we reach a boil over or breaking point.  Emotions are hard. 1000%. Nobody really wants to deal with them. But why? Mostly because of society and ou...